But here is the thing. This picture makes it look like our bedroom is clean and all put together. I could post this picture and give the impression that my world is clean and organized. I could let you assume that I have it all together. That one simple picture could make you think so many different things.
But there is so much more that you don't see.
You don't see the pile of laundry that is just behind the headboard--I just easily moved my camera to block it out. You don't see the stack of pregnancy clothes that is sitting in the corner, waiting to be put away (for almost 3 months now). You don't see the stack of dirty dishes sitting in my kitchen sink (and all over my counter). And you don't see this:
See, it is so easy for a picture to give the impression that everything is perfect. That a person has everything together. That, even during a chaotic time in life, such as having a newborn, one can seemingly hold it all together. Yet, that really isn't the case.
Having a baby--and, well, also having the propensity to constantly challenge my unhealthy habits--has made me realize that my type A personality and slight OCD are a heavy burden to carry. Having everything clean and orderly isn't necessarily a good thing and only gives the outward appearance of being in control.
Hear my out for a second.
As I was staring at the first scene above--the one where light is filtering in through the window and everything is seemingly "perfect"-- I realized that perfection is only 'skin deep' so to speak. When someone posts a picture on Facebook, Twitter, or Instagram, we only see what they want us to see. The perfectly smiling child or the well kept house might look a little different if we were to get a glimpse of the whole picture. That child might have just stopped screaming after an hour of being unsettled and that perfectly kept house, in reality, is just a calm corner in the midst of chaos. We need to realize that what seems like perfection, might not always be.
Even more so, we need to stop using these false glimpses as a standard for our own personal lives. Finding the beauty in our everyday activities should be our goal. Trust me, there is so much good around us, we just need to learn to be aware of it and see it.
I tend to expect too much from myself. When I make this huge list of unrealistic goals, and then don't accomplish them, I get really frustrated and beat myself up about it. If things aren't 'perfect' I get mad at myself and the negative self talk starts. If someone comes over to our house and every space isn't spotless, I am ashamed. I set my expectations so high, only to never achieve them.
This needs to STOP.
In short: NONE of the above is important.
Rather, I should be looking for the perfection and beauty in my day as it happens. I should be focusing on snuggling my beautiful boy and watching him learn and grow, instead of worry about how clean my house is or if the files on my computer are organized. He is only this young once. I really don't want to look back and think that I missed something about the process of him growing up.
There are so many more important things in life. Having a clean house is not one of them...